…I want to scream, for screaming makes the pain seem less acute

for the briefest of moments and in the end brief respite can surely only be noble.

I should buckle under the weight of it all and prepare my coffin suit

and place my emotional trust in the fall out quality of Chernobyl.

You have been the most faithful of companions, conspiring harridan.

Never wavering in your ability to astound and fuck me over, friend

time and time again, if personified, you would make the most evil of men